I'm always afraid. There isn't a worst away to live than to be afraid. Afraid of my past that follows me like a ghost. I afraid of the present that is happening and I can't control. I'm afraid of the future that is not decided by me. I afraid of the mistakes I done. I'm Afraid of doing them again. I'm afraid of being by myself. I'm afraid of losing him. I'm afraid of losing more friends than I have already lost. I'm sad, sometimes, just for myself. I close a door in my heart that makes me lose the way to find an answer. Why I can not be brave? I just fucking hate the exactly me right now.